Det var ett tag sedan jag gjorde yoga och jag tycker det känns i mitt mående. Jag är inget yoga proffs men hela grejen med att få en lugn stund för mig själv gör mig gott. För att inte tala om att jag även äter bättre under perioder jag är aktiv med min morgon och ”mitt på dagen yoga”. Typ som denna frukost jag önskar jag åt nu, en bowl med overnight oats och lite annat gott. Recept på min (Kerr Jollof) overnight oats finns här.
Bjuder på lite bilder ifrån vår yoga shoot på Malta tidigare i år. Älskar dessa set från Hünkemöller! Bilderna på mig är tagna utav Katriina Mäkinen.
En annan favorit är sprayen från Gröna gredelina och badsaltet som har lite lugnande effekt. Läs mer om produkterna här.
Vad är era bästa tips för att hitta lugn?
Mother oh mother, why is your heart so heavy?!
Let’s talk about that gold ol’ mother’s guilt trip that sooner or later hits (most) mums. Have you felt it? Has your mother? Or maybe her mother?https://www.ayshajones.com/wp-content/uploads/sites/68/2018/09/img_7836.mov
I’m asking because on my recent trip to London in line for a show talking to what then was total strangers that’s the one thing we instantly built a bond on. Guilt! It seems as if regardless of how much you do or give your kids, as a mother you will ALWAYS feel like you could have done or given more. Better. It’s exhausting and frankly quite depressing! No wonder why women have a hard time being mothers and not loosing their own dreams and ambitions for themselves.
And yes boo I’m very aware of father’s being able to feel the same or both being able to not loose themselves and so on. But let’s be honest for a minute, how many do you know they don’t feel like crappy parents even though they’re the best parents they can be.
Why do we feel like this?! I think it’s because society tells us when one has a child ones should be consumed by them and devote their entire being to that child. And yes having a child is a beautiful thing but must it be everything *insert thinking emoji*!
For me I’ve noticed that this infamous guilt trip has held me back as a person and that unknowingly resulted in me being bitter and unhappy with myself, my situation and life. I’m learning day by day to say fvuxk it and accepting as well as acknowledging my need to have my own life. Apart from these wonderful monsters of that I love with all my soul. To quote a woman I met when out with Joanne
I might be off with this one but I think not. What you think? Do take my poll in my stories on Instagram.
Ps. All photos except the video on top is from when my kids were itsy bitsy babies!
London, fashion & missed opportunities…
Those of you who has followed me since way back aka my day ones, knows that I used to live in London for a short while in 2004. I went there straight from collage thinking I’d become the next Naomi, as did all skinny and somewhat tall black girls at that time. I became no Naomi and not even a Tyra, however I did fall in love with London and it was a bittersweet love indeed. I went home, pregnant and stopped modeling as such. Instead I had a wonderful baby boy (he’s not so wonderful now however being the tiny teenage monster he’s!) and became who I was supposed to be. Me. In all my glory. But I’ve always wanted a way back to London’s fashion scene and God all mighty gave me plenty of them but scared as I was I always found a way to hold myself back. This summer has been all about facing inner demons and taking a good look at myself to find some type of reconciliation with myself, people of my past and present. So that I, we may welcome the beauty of the future in peace, self control, self confidence and most importantly self love.
I thank my dear friend Samira and my stronghold Ous for pushing me to go. And most of all I thank my new manager and confident qween Yasmina for making it all happen for me, listening to my fears and then ignoring them completely in full faith of my inner strength that I myself forgot I had. Without you I wouldn’t have made this personal milestone a reality and I’m so happy to have you in my ring corner!
Here’s some photos of myself because I know what y’all really wanna see and read about is the shows, the glory and the glam. Which I’ll give y’all in tomorrow’s post but if you can’t wait til then go to my Instagram where I’ll post few glimpses on my stories. Find me on @iamayshajones as per usual babes!
By the way. Do something crazy today and then tell me all about it, let’s be savage together!
Ps. My jacket is from Zara, bought on sale 1 1/2yr ago I think #gotitforcheap cos we ain’t flexing like that!
As some of you may have noticed I’ve taken a little break from publishing both blog posts and in my Instagram feed. The reason to why is very important and it’s due to my health. I’ve struggled writing this post as I don’t know how to express my emotions and mind.
Therefore I instead advise you to read this post by the coolest person ever!
The following is a short draft from a sms I sent to friend the other day. I was having a panic attack and couldn’t focus. It’s in Swedish but please do use google translate to understand in your preferred language.
”När jag väl kom hem var jag så trött att jag somnade en stund och fortsatte sen göra klart allt inför idag. Va helt klar och la mig för att sova men det gick inte. Inte ens musik llr sömntabletter hjälpte. Kroppen fick ingen ro och jag tänkte att jag ska kolla lite på tv för att bli trött men satt bara och bara grät och stirra in i tvn utan att förstå ett dyft. Från ingenstans va klockan över tre och då fick jag ännu mer panik och ångest. Har under natten somnat och vaknat med panik om och om igen. Hade bokat en tid med psykolog efter min resa men ska till akutpsyk nu och se vad för hjälp som kan ges.”
I’ve realized that getting inspired helps my health, I need to see and talk to creative people and specially women.
Three women that inspires me. Maryem, Patricia and Therese!
Right now I’m in Uganda for a trip with Not for sale ale and friends. It’s been everything I needed it to be without knowing what I needed. Make sure to keep an eye open for my upcoming videos on YouTube, click here to go there. And go to my Instagram for cool photos and stories from my trip so far @iamayshajones or click here.
One thing I know now is that after this summer I’m going to work and interact on a every other day basis. Meaning I’ll rest a day between work. I’m also going to get a phone that I’ll use for private calls etc so that I can switch off the one with all my social media and so on. I have heard lots of influencers do that and I’m starting to understand why.
If you’re going through a though time do reach out to your family and friends but don’t forget to also contact a doctor that can help you overcome your challenges.
Keep rocking and you’re awesome!
My kids & health is my wealth!
Not too long ago I couldn’t get up from bed, my body was too heavy for me to lift. My mind was all ready up and fixing things on my very long and ambitious to do list, but my body was still in bed. And I didn’t know why but there I was, unable to get up. And I started crying because this felt so scary and I was all alone in the house. I only told few very close friends about this but brushed it off and kept going. Until when I a few weeks ago first fainted then came back to consciousness only to pass out again and this time for several hours. Everyone was home that day, but since no know knows how I and my body really feels they thought I was just tired and decided to take a nap in that ackward position. This is when I understood things has to change, not later not tomorrow now!
So recently I sold my rights to several of my brands, including Melanin boxes which needed more time and energy than I currently have. At first I was very sad about it but now once done it feels so good! It was definitely the right thing to do right now as I’m way too exhausted to keep it up and push it further to where I (& many others with me) think it could be.
I never created the brand for my own gains rather it was because I saw a need for it and felt it was my obligation to start it. But I must also keep my obligations to myself and that means focusing on my health which is currently not so well.
I’ll tell you more about my health in another post as I know many will be worried after reading this, but don’t be. I’m finally actually taking care of myself and putting me first, unapologetically and selfishly! Right now I have to order a subscription to Melanin boxes and I think you should too! Click here to shop and please keep supporting Melanin boxes, it’s a much needed and important product. It’s groundbreaking in it’s field and holds high quality!
Boxes ready to be sent to an event I sponsored!
To Therese who’s the new owner of Melanin boxes I say good luck and I’m cheering for you! I’m beyond happy that YOU became it’s new owner and have full confidence in you running it. And to Joi who helped me so much in the beginning, I owe you major and thank you for inspiring me to pick up photography!!!
What is all that success and wealth if you’re not alive to enjoy it with your loved ones?!