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Yoga essentials

Yoga essentials

Det var ett tag sedan jag gjorde yoga och jag tycker det känns i mitt mående. Jag är inget yoga proffs men hela grejen med att få en lugn stund för mig själv gör mig gott. För att inte tala om att jag även äter bättre under perioder jag är aktiv med min morgon och ”mitt på dagen yoga”. Typ som denna frukost jag önskar jag åt nu, en bowl med overnight oats och lite annat gott. Recept på min (Kerr Jollof) overnight oats finns här.

Bjuder på lite bilder ifrån vår yoga shoot på Malta tidigare i år. Älskar dessa set från Hünkemöller! Bilderna på mig är tagna utav Katriina Mäkinen.

En annan favorit är sprayen från Gröna gredelina och badsaltet som har lite lugnande effekt. Läs mer om produkterna här.

Vad är era bästa tips för att hitta lugn?

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London, fashion & missed opportunities…

London, fashion & missed opportunities…

Those of you who has followed me since way back aka my day ones, knows that I used to live in London for a short while in 2004. I went there straight from collage thinking I’d become the next Naomi, as did all skinny and somewhat tall black girls at that time. I became no Naomi and not even a Tyra, however I did fall in love with London and it was a bittersweet love indeed. I went home, pregnant and stopped modeling as such. Instead I had a wonderful baby boy (he’s not so wonderful now however being the tiny teenage monster he’s!) and became who I was supposed to be. Me. In all my glory. But I’ve always wanted a way back to London’s fashion scene and God all mighty gave me plenty of them but scared as I was I always found a way to hold myself back. This summer has been all about facing inner demons and taking a good look at myself to find some type of reconciliation with myself, people of my past and present. So that I, we may welcome the beauty of the future in peace, self control, self confidence and most importantly self love.

I thank my dear friend Samira and my stronghold Ous for pushing me to go. And most of all I thank my new manager and confident qween Yasmina for making it all happen for me, listening to my fears and then ignoring them completely in full faith of my inner strength that I myself forgot I had. Without you I wouldn’t have made this personal milestone a reality and I’m so happy to have you in my ring corner!

Here’s some photos of myself because I know what y’all really wanna see and read about is the shows, the glory and the glam. Which I’ll give y’all in tomorrow’s post but if you can’t wait til then go to my Instagram where I’ll post few glimpses on my stories. Find me on @iamayshajones as per usual babes!

By the way. Do something crazy today and then tell me all about it, let’s be savage together!

/Aysha

Ps. My jacket is from Zara, bought on sale 1 1/2yr ago I think #gotitforcheap cos we ain’t flexing like that!

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Breaks are good for you!

As some of you may have noticed I’ve taken a little break from publishing both blog posts and in my Instagram feed. The reason to why is very important and it’s due to my health. I’ve struggled writing this post as I don’t know how to express my emotions and mind.

Therefore I instead advise you to read this post by the coolest person ever!

The following is a short draft from a sms I sent to friend the other day. I was having a panic attack and couldn’t focus. It’s in Swedish but please do use google translate to understand in your preferred language.

”När jag väl kom hem var jag så trött att jag somnade en stund och fortsatte sen göra klart allt inför idag. Va helt klar och la mig för att sova men det gick inte. Inte ens musik llr sömntabletter hjälpte. Kroppen fick ingen ro och jag tänkte att jag ska kolla lite på tv för att bli trött men satt bara och bara grät och stirra in i tvn utan att förstå ett dyft. Från ingenstans va klockan över tre och då fick jag ännu mer panik och ångest. Har under natten somnat och vaknat med panik om och om igen. Hade bokat en tid med psykolog efter min resa men ska till akutpsyk nu och se vad för hjälp som kan ges.”

I’ve realized that getting inspired helps my health, I need to see and talk to creative people and specially women.

Three women that inspires me. Maryem, Patricia and Therese!

Right now I’m in Uganda for a trip with Not for sale ale and friends. It’s been everything I needed it to be without knowing what I needed. Make sure to keep an eye open for my upcoming videos on YouTube, click here to go there. And go to my Instagram for cool photos and stories from my trip so far @iamayshajones or click here.

One thing I know now is that after this summer I’m going to work and interact on a every other day basis. Meaning I’ll rest a day between work. I’m also going to get a phone that I’ll use for private calls etc so that I can switch off the one with all my social media and so on. I have heard lots of influencers do that and I’m starting to understand why.

If you’re going through a though time do reach out to your family and friends but don’t forget to also contact a doctor that can help you overcome your challenges.

Keep rocking and you’re awesome!

/Aysha

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Sometimes I don’t feel so good…

This post has adlinks, however all thoughts are my own!

Ok so I know why it’s taken me so long to review this book. It’s not the fact that I don’t know what I think of it, rather it’s the fact of what it made me think of myself.

My thoughts on the book Sometimes I don’t feel so good (Ibland mår jag inte så bra)

What I loved the most about the book was it’s raw honesty. The fact that Therese so openly wrote about the thrill and need of attention to boost her self esteem and how she (sadly) isolated herself from everything and everyone. This is her love letter to not only herself but to all girls around Sweden struggling to juggle perfection and expectations of always feeling well. Because let’s face it, sometimes (all of us) just don’t feel so good!

The book also consists of short facts about various mental health conditions and what defines them. Very educational for those who might not fully understand the cores of them. To me they were a reality check from facts I’ve tried to ignore for long but now had to face and acknowledge.

Right after this I was decked out for hours, enjoyed my breakfast thou!

Loved this quality time with my son and our books in Madeira a while back.

My ultimate favorite from the Indy beauty collection, the hand lotion. I love the soft scent it has. Had to buy one for my daughter too!

Is it the best book I’ve read on the topic?

Probably not. However it’s the most important one of this day of age as Therese reaches a lot of young people and her writing this will hopefully help at least one or two young people from feeling alone and understanding mental illness. I do recommend it and it comes in two cover versions, hard cover and pocket. Part two of this post will be published tomorrow, it’s a sum up of both the book and the products by Therese Lindgren. Make sure to read it, there’s a twist in the end of tomorrow’s post!

/Aysha

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From the archive

Please also notice my first attempt to wear makeup with way too ashy foundation….

Growing up as a colored nappy chubby girl in a small Swedish town in the early eighties was everything but fun or easy. All I remember is struggle. Identity struggle. Skin tone struggle. Nappy hair struggle. Chubby girl struggle. Prejudice struggle. Every damn day there was a struggle.

I dont remember who the two other ones are but the skinny black girl is my big sister!

Always in my braids…

All I remember is fighting for my right to exist, in so many different ways . My fight started when I was in kindergarten because it was by that time I realized I was black. A black child living in a white country.

Sad thing is, I’m still struggling. But I’ve ended the war against myself and I came out a winner in all possible ways because I learned to love myself, see myself to be enough as I am and most importantly be my damn self!

Since I’ve grown older and got kids of my own I’ve started reflecting upon how one teaches (children) self love or even explain it to a child or young adult. I started observing colored women around me, how they behave when in company of other colored women and when with non colored women. I noticed that the behavior has changed over the years and decided to ask a few what they think about self love, being a black woman and how their views has changed over the years. That is if it has changed at all…

/Aysha Jones

This is a repost from an old post of mine, posted 1-2years ago. I just found the draft for it in my old laptop. However the last three photos are new and taken by Katriina Mäkinen. The photo of grown up me in a afro next to young me is taken by Baraka Bahati.

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Stepping down

My kids & health is my wealth!

Not too long ago I couldn’t get up from bed, my body was too heavy for me to lift. My mind was all ready up and fixing things on my very long and ambitious to do list, but my body was still in bed. And I didn’t know why but there I was, unable to get up. And I started crying because this felt so scary and I was all alone in the house. I only told few very close friends about this but brushed it off and kept going. Until when I a few weeks ago first fainted then came back to consciousness only to pass out again and this time for several hours. Everyone was home that day, but since no know knows how I and my body really feels they thought I was just tired and decided to take a nap in that ackward position. This is when I understood things has to change, not later not tomorrow now!

So recently I sold my rights to several of my brands, including Melanin boxes which needed more time and energy than I currently have. At first I was very sad about it but now once done it feels so good! It was definitely the right thing to do right now as I’m way too exhausted to keep it up and push it further to where I (& many others with me) think it could be.

I never created the brand for my own gains rather it was because I saw a need for it and felt it was my obligation to start it. But I must also keep my obligations to myself and that means focusing on my health which is currently not so well.

I’ll tell you more about my health in another post as I know many will be worried after reading this, but don’t be. I’m finally actually taking care of myself and putting me first, unapologetically and selfishly! Right now I have to order a subscription to Melanin boxes and I think you should too! Click here to shop and please keep supporting Melanin boxes, it’s a much needed and important product. It’s groundbreaking in it’s field and holds high quality!

Boxes ready to be sent to an event I sponsored!

To Therese who’s the new owner of Melanin boxes I say good luck and I’m cheering for you! I’m beyond happy that YOU became it’s new owner and have full confidence in you running it. And to Joi who helped me so much in the beginning, I owe you major and thank you for inspiring me to pick up photography!!!

/Aysha

What is all that success and wealth if you’re not alive to enjoy it with your loved ones?!

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Anxiety is a bish

Dom flesta utav er förstår kanske inte vad jag menar men den senaste har mitt huvud känts spänt, typ som att det är överfullt och extremt tungt. Ångest. En ren bitch! Ångest över allt. Alla och inget. Det är sjukt jobbigt ibland (läs ofta, alltid, jämt) att leva i en kropp med en hjärna som inte alltid samarbetar eller kan stänga av. Känner extremt mycket press att vara en perfekt mamma, fru, vän, allt. Fan till och med en bra fiende ska man vara… Min ambition är att varje dag göra något litet som kan ta mig eller mina barn framåt i livet, oftast klarar jag det men ibland är det tungt. Typ som när min äldsta son med autism, adhd, dcd och lindrig utvecklingsstörning har det tufft och mår dåligt. Då brister allt, för oss båda men självklart mest för honom. Problemet är bara det att jag inte får brista, för då brister verkligen allt. Och så kommer den där jäkla ångesten igen, över att inte klara nåt. Inte orka något, inte kunna något. Och allt bara faller för huvudet är så tyngt med måsten, ska:n och borde. Tänk den som bara fick vara.

Jag är glad i alla fall över de fina människorna jag har i mitt liv. Familjen. Vännerna. Klienterna. Alla. Ni ger en ångest drabbad själ ro. Tack för er. Alla.

Har ni något plats ni finner extra ro i? Jag har min läshörna som jag gärna sitter i även om jag inte läser så mycket längre. Även min nyinredda kontorsdel hemma i vardagsrummet ger mig ro. Här sitter jag och bara är. Skriver. Och gör. Här mår jag bra.

Most of you may not understand what I mean but lately my head has felt tense, like being overwhelmed and extremely heavy. Anxiety. A pure bitch! Anxiety about everything. All and nothing. It is sometimes difficult (read often, always, all the time) to live in a body with a brain that does not always work together or can shut down. Feeling extremely pressured to be a perfect mom, wife, friend, everything. Even to be a good enemy… My ambition is to do something small every day that can bring my children or children further in life, usually I can do it, but sometimes it’s hard. Kind of like when my oldest son with autism, adhd, dcd and mild developmental disorder is in a tough and bad state. Then everything is falls, for both of us but of course mostly for him. The problem is just that I can not break, because then everything really breaks. And then that stupid anxiety comes again, about not being able to do anything. Do not having the energy for anything, not knowing anything. And everything just falls because the head is so heavy with all these must:s, should:s and would:s. What a joy to just be.

I’m happy about the nice people I have in my life. Family. Friends. Clients. All. You give a soul affected by anxiety serenity. Thank God for you. All.

Do you have any place you will find extra peace in? I have my reading corner, which I like to sit in, although I do not read so much anymore. Also my newly decorated office space at home in the living room gives me peace. Here I sit and just be. Write. And does. Here I feel good.